no one laughs at God in a hospital ...
or after routine tests...
or after it's real late...
or uncontrollable shaking...
or famine, fire and floods...
but it's when God's funny.
damn - i guess that's a good joke.

i don't think we're meant to love this young
i know we aren't meant to die this young
or feel pain this strong
and it's these. these remind me of the necessity for something
better.
stronger.
beyond me ... and this and now.
i need an eternal in the midst of the chaotic now.

i'm so thankful for good friends
ones who do the hard things for me.
like consoling my baby brother the day his best friend of year and years
dies. terribly.
when i simply can't get there.

leaves become most beautiful when they're about to die.
it's diamonds all around.